Sincerely hope that they do not become just a bunch of acquaintances. I do still feel attached. But it has been a while. I hate the fucking drift. Everyone telling me that things will eventually work its way out. By making the best of what we have. When you have people to support you, what is there to fear about actually?

To make decisions, I'm afraid of making wrong ones. It'll bring me down. I'm sure it will. But to think again that is the last thing one should be afraid of, because life is about making mistakes and growing up. When did I become this vulnerable, I've got no idea.

I need to constantly reminding what I really want for myself and for people that matter to me, immune from hatred will be the best. Stop hating and move along with life. The people who care about me will always stand by my side.